where did the last 8 weeks go??

i can't believe this is my last week of maternity leave. i'm a mess. a complete mess. 8 weeks is not enough time off. i'm sure i would think the same thing after 12 weeks....blah! i'm trying hard to be grateful that I have 8 weeks off, i know some people who only take a week or two. i am toying with the idea of changing my work schedule around so i can be with him more. i have to figure out some logistics first. over the last 2 weeks tyler has grown so much...

he laughs. he smiles. he dances. he giggles. he's perfectly content just starting at ruddley and i. he loves to grab onto things...my shirt, my hair, the rings on his carseat, you name it. i never knew how in love with my kid i could be. anyone that knows me knows i am not a "omg look at your baby, i love him, he is so cute, i just wanna be with him all day" kind of person. yeah, i have always wanted kids and a family but i've never been overly gaga about other people's babies. until now. until he's mine. it's really a feeling i can't describe but any mom out there know's exactly what i am talking about.

last week was greg's last visit. tyler was 12.05lb, up from 9.0 at birth. he said he could still hear a little bit of his heart murmur but he didn't feel like it was too bad. we have a doctor's appointment next friday for his 2 month checkup so i'll have more details then. i do know he's growing though, i had to adjust the straps on his car seat a few weeks ago and move them up a notch. while it's nice to know my kiddo is growing, it makes me sad. i want him to be small forever. i don't want him to grow up. i feel like it's going to go by so fast and next thing i know he's going to college. i know, i know, he's only 7 weeks, get a grip sarah!

we are still working on the feeding and sleeping schedule. i know going to daycare will help him get on a more regular schedule...i hope. i really wonder how he will do at daycare??? he's never been away from me for more than 3 hours (which he screamed the entire time).

now that it's fall and i am putting real clothes on him and not just onsies he really looks older to me and more like a person and not a baby. i can't wait to see how he turns out (i know i just said i didn't want him to grow up...). i wonder what his personality will be. stubborn like his mom? hardworking like his dad? athletic like his mom and dad or be completely into things that we have no clue about!?? so many great things to look forward to. sunday my baby will be 2 months old!!

a few more days and it's back to real life again. i'll keep you posted.